Late Night

For me late night is the time I free my mind from all my problems and it is also the time I cannot seem to stop thinking about this person. Yesterday I went throught this trauma finding out the guy I thought who was my everything, my life, my rock, and I could continue to go on although he tore me, wrecked me, shot my insides, made me lose my mind, just when you think you know somebody so well it will never be enough. I spent four entire years of my life moving on each day loving this person, thinking about them, and basing my life upon this person. To come and find out he is this insane beast who lost control of himself. The term "Men are all the same," I began to overlook because I thought this beast was the one. I discovered things that no girl would ever want to face. Cheating on a person is bad enough, sure actions are tough. Words are the ones that stick and fry into your brain and will scar your heart for life. Thanks alot.

How Come.....

I know what I need to stay away from? But I can't seem to stay away from it. There is this monster inside me wanting to get out and it needs to stay out. Everyday is a new day I need to teach myself to become a better person and stay away from that monster that is turning me into this disaster that I am not. As I was growing up I had problems every normal human being does, how come it seems to be getting worst? How come? How come? I need to stay away from the monster.

Listen

When no one listens..... It goes through one ear out the other. Does that feeling suck? More than ever.

Boy

Girls need to just keep their mind open to the fact that he's just another boy. Why must a girl suffer for a boy? Being in love may be the most important thing in the world right now, although it isn't. Going through hardhships isn't exactly easy. It's unfortunate to say that once you find a boy you think you've given your heart and everything to, do not ever give it all, cause in the end they'll just rip you heart in two. Finding a boy that will actually make you proud for being a girl is very uncommon now. Each day I realize the world is becoming so shitty, people are shady, girls are becoming sluttier, boys don't know how to keep their valuables away, people surronding us drinking and smoking and all these things are a part of everyday life. It's a disgrace to see what a girl puts herself through thinking this one boy was the one. It's so easy for a boy to make a girl cry why should it be that way? Why can't it be the reverse? Cause' guess what boys have no respect for themselves, it's most likely because they have no self-esteem that they will go beyond the point to hurt that poor innocent girl that stood by them 24/7 over this shitty world that is being created. Boys tell you how much they love you and no other girl in this world is worth it that's why they spend half their life with you, yet when they get that open opportunity it is so easy for them to erase everything they've said, trusting a boy is what i'll try and avoid each day of my life, because i've fallen once and if I fall twice I might just be as stupid as that boy I keep crawling to.

Smile

Smile, it's a thing I try to do each day it's getting harder actually. Being different is so hard nobody seems to like you. I want to find a person in this world who is just like me how come being different has become such a bad trait to have these days?

People

Always seem to disappoint me.

Happiness

Lately happiness is definitely hard for me to find and also define. At times I feel as if I have found it, although something always makes me think twice about ir I always seem to find myself worrying too much and overwhelmed about a situation that is not even infront of me. It has been so hard to find somebody I could relate with.